Rays and Days

  They say what crosses your mind in the quietest hour of the night is the most honest truth. It has been exactly 182 days since I posted my 2 AM Thoughts series. Half a year has passed, and perhaps this is the perfect time for another one, to reflect, to rewind, and to look back on everything that has unfolded lately. *** Saying "Yes" Still Scares Me I said yes to another opportunity to stand under the spotlight, more than one, actually. Three different events within six months. Still feels unbelievable. What I always seem to forget is that every "yes" comes with extra nervousness, anxiety, and, occasionally, a complete mental breakdown before the camera even starts rolling. To everyone who had to witness that version of me, I’m truly sorry. I know I wasn’t the easiest person to be around during those moments. The emotional roller coaster was... a lot. But your presence, patience, reassurance, and quiet confidence in me—right until the floor director finally said, ...

They say what crosses your mind in the quietest hour of the night is the most honest truth. If that’s the case, then I must admit: 2025 was a tough year. So much happened—the fun parts, the exhausting parts, the joyful parts, and the deeply vulnerable ones. There were times I laughed freely in crowded rooms. There were times I screamed silently in the very same rooms I once enjoyed. I cried in the car. I bawled at my desk. I sobbed in bed. I wept in the bathroom. Peak quarter-life crisis, isn’t it? Have you noticed how every light is always accompanied by shadow? How the sun must set so the moon can have its time to shine? Here are my personal takeaways from 2025—both the beautiful and the painful. *** 1) Be Brave There is a rare kind of privilege in being tired from building the life you want—and that exhaustion is worth every unpaid minute. A simple “yes” turned into something unimaginable. I was incredibly grateful when someone scouted me to join their hackathon team. I ...

This post has been sitting in my draft for 3-4 years, written after attending online graduation. I have much to say on that day, but it was never conveyed properly. Finally, after a lot of procrastination, I will try to post again, from the very old and dusty draft. Even though it's been five years since my last post, I guess it's not too late to start a new beginning.